I don’t know what I want, but I WANT IT NOW! — This used to be my motto for many, many years. As an entrepreneur, mentor, mom (bruh), friend, and lover, the idea of just sitting there… still… waiting for somebody else—or a divine power—to make something happen for me is simply inconceivable.
Sitting there, watching the minutes pass slowly, with no action, drives me crazy. Two and a half years ago, I went through a major life-changing event. My first reaction was to fill the void with extreme busyness. I overpacked my agenda with meetings, studies, classes, activities, work, trips—anything to cover every single second so my mind and heart wouldn’t have time to think or feel.
During that time, I reached out to a couple of people for guidance—from therapists to tarot readers—and all of them told me the same thing: Sit still. In fact, a new word was added to my vocabulary: Nothingness. It was represented by a completely black tarot card with the word No-Thingness.
“Nothingness is the fragrance of the beyond. It is the opening of the heart to the transcendental”.
Osho
So, after receiving the same message from everywhere, I decided to surrender. SURRENDER!! For someone raised as a warrior, surrender wasn’t even an option. But I did it.
For 30 months, I dedicated myself—gracefully—to cultivating things that required consistent discipline and enormous patience just to start seeing results. During those 30 months, I learned to kind of smile again, to try to discover what joy really means, to stop and smell the roses, but most of all, to trust the process and learn to wait.
I now see waiting as an opportunity to let something—or someone—else take control as a way to expand my own power. If I always have control, I’m pretty much always going to get a very predictable result. But if I let someone else take control and simply wait, I’m certain the result will be completely unexpected, unimaginable—BEYOND. The key is to TRUST.
(I know, that’s hard. But sometimes, it really doesn’t matter. The equation always comes down to what you have to lose versus what you have to gain. When you’re not afraid to lose, you will always win.)
Someone asked me a couple of weeks ago how to face the fears of being an entrepreneur. My answer? Homework, of course: “Send me a very specific list of what you will lose if your business fails.” When you put things in perspective and truly understand that you’re not actually losing anything, you can surrender, you can wait, and you can let the universe surprise you.
I’m now in a different waiting journey, and my patience struggles sometimes. But I’m convinced that power lies in the ability to TRUST—to trust that everything happens for a reason and that things cannot be forced.
Just to be clear, this doesn’t mean inaction, laziness, or dropping the ball. It means embracing the beautiful dance—where you are moving with the speed and rhythm, but the universe is playing the tune.
Happy Monday.
